Stupid love.

Why do I like you so much. I gave you all of my heart. I put you on the top of the priority list. I always want to see you. I miss you. I think of you. I can't get you off my mind. Why? Are you really that good? You did nothing for me. You don't care for me. You don't miss me. You don't spare your time for me. You don't want to see me. You don't treat me as well as even a stranger. Am I not good enough? Or am I just too below your qualification? Hah. With all these I've given to you, I deserve someone, I wouldn't say someone better, but I deserve someone who could give me the same thing I gave to you. I don't understand. Is your heart made of steel? So cold and stiff. Is your soul filled with emptiness? Nothing can fill it up. Are your eyes not connected to your brain? Too blind to see what's true. If I am my friend, the advice I'd give is to get over you. But myself, I can't. If I leave, I lose someone who don't care about me, you lose someone who love you so much. So I won't say, wish that I can eventually get your heart, I'll say wish that you can eventually keep me with you.

看开

"看开"是个很多人喜欢用的词。为什么? 是他们真的看开了吗? 不是。那么为什么, 为什么他们要用这个词呢? 有的人会觉得这些人不诚实, 喜欢胡言乱语, 说的话不尽不实。换个想法, 站在他们的立场想, 这会不会是他们为自己找到的唯一一个达成心理协调的方法? 这世界有太多太多不在我们掌控之中的事物, 更多我们自以为努力就可以实现的梦想。当我们累了, 疲惫了, 智慧告诉自己放弃, 内心却不想放弃。这时, 我们就会说"看开了"。不是真的要放弃, 反而是想努力, 更努力。只是, 不得不承认这事九成是办不成的了。给自己个心理准备, 告诉自己要看得开, 才能放手一搏。就算不成功, 也不会太失望。

我不如他

为什么你可以爱他到愿意把初吻献给他, 而对我却连花时间在一起都觉得太急了?

Stopped and wondering

Everyone's trying to get the best, be the best, have you ever stopped fighting and take a step out of the situation and wonder why? We come to this world, we follow the way to survive, and yet we are lost. Have we actually done what we wanted to do? Have we actually experienced what we wanted to experience? Just one year, it has proven a lot. If it's yours, it's yours. Looking back at all the footsteps, they were all fated to be.

Keep on wasting time

I won't have much time soon. If you still don't want to let me practise car driving, i really don't understand why the hell am I holding this fking driving license. Let me tell you something, I don't want to waste time waiting for you anymore. If I'm going to KL next year, I'll drive on the highway for my first drive. If I manage to survive, okay good, i'll play on. If unfortunately I die, okay good, end of the game.

Be stronger with negative energy

By keeping negative energy produced by incidents, thoughts or failures in life, we can actually push ourselves further to achieve something we can never achieve in normal condition. Negative energy can also be one of the energy sources for our mind to get a touch of madness. Negative energy can drive us mad, make us to reach a level we'd never expect to. As long as you can control the negative energy and use it for your own purpose, it is good to use.

傍晚的等待

夕阳西下, 暖和的阳光一丝一丝地洒在地上, 为这世界彩上线条分明的耀眼微橙色, 而大树的顶端变得如此的闪耀夺目。我坐在椅子上, 等着。俯身斜望来自远方的光芒, 它仿佛是要勾起我的什么记忆。仰望天空, 那一朵朵云好像暗示着我些什么。想一想, 对了, 两年过去了。在世界另一边的你, 过得怎样? 阳光, 谢谢你的怜悯, 给我替代的温暖。云朵, 我交给你的心思, 希望你在某一天可以飘到那儿代我交给那曾经不离不弃的人。